My Heaven

Effing Govt

WHAT IS NEVER MENTIONED IN Mainstream Media like NST/TheStar/ Utusan/BH
are these facts....

Malaysian PerCapita Income USD 5000 VS Singaporean PerCapita Income USD 25000
马来西亚个人年收入指数5千美金对比 新国个人年指数2万5千美金

Further, The Star made a comparison of prices in Thailand , Singapore and Indonesia . For Thailand it is quoted at RM3.90/liter, however are they aware that in Thailand new cars are cheaper than Malaysia by RM10,000? They pay only one life time for their driving license? No renewal fee after that? Also that goes for road tax as well? And do TheStar also aware that you can drive all the way from Hadtyai to Bangkok on a six lane highway without paying any Tolls ??!! THESTAR
日前做出马来西亚燃油价格对比临近其他国家（如泰国、新国以及印尼）燃油价格。泰国每公升3.90马币，然而报章并没有载出：
1. 泰国的汽车售价平均比大马的汽车销售价便宜1万马币。
2. 泰国车主一辈子只需缴付一次驾照以及路税而不必更新。
3. 从合艾开往曼谷有一条完全没有收费站的6道大道。

Where as here in Malaysia you have to pay yearly renewal for road tax, driving license and TOLLS, TOLLS, TOLLS!!!
反过来看大马，驾车人士必须更新驾照、路税，以及给不完的大道过路费！

For Singapore how can you quote RM 5.20? Please quote in Singapore Dollars because they are earning in Sing Dollars. You might as well say Europeans are paying RM10/liter. RM5.20/liter = Sing $ 2.20/liter, still cheaper than Malaysia in view of fact that Singapore is not acrude oil exporter. Are you saying that you fill up petrol in Singapore by paying Ringgit?
针 对新国的状况，报章如何可以报导新国的燃油价为5.20马币？要知道新国人民赚的是新币。如果说新币也可以这么诠释，那么就干脆欧洲人正在付出每公升10 马币的燃油好了。以赚新币兑新币来算，5.20马币 =2.2新币，那依然是比大马便宜。要知道，新国并非原油出产国，除非是在说着在新国用马币加油...

In economy, dollar to dollar must be compared as apple to apple. Not comparing like durian in M ' sia is much cheaper than durian in Japan !! Of course-lah, Japan is not durian producer!!! Comparing Malaysian durian with Thailand durian make more sense!!
在经济学论，一元对一元形同苹果对苹果，而不是拿马来西亚的榴莲跟日本的榴莲来相提并论。那是绝对的嘛，因为日本根本就不是榴莲生产国啊！要比较榴莲，该拿大马跟同样出产榴莲的泰国相比才对。

For Indonesia we might say is cheaper there at RM2.07/liter but compare that to their level of income!
当然对于印尼则另当别论，虽然他们只售每公升2.07马币，但他们的收入却不是可以相提并论的。

Now, let us compare the price with OIL PRODUCING countries:
现在让我们来跟同样是石油出产国的国家比较一下：

>>> UAE RM1.19/litre 阿拉伯酋长国 1.19马币
>>> Eygpt RM1.03/litre 埃及 1.03马币
>>> Bahrain RM0.87/litre 巴瑞 0.87马币
>>> Qatar RM0.68/litre 伽达 0.68马币
>>> Kuwait RM0.67/litre 科威特 0.67马币
>>> Saudi Arabia RM0.38/litre 沙地阿拉伯 0.38马币
>>> IranRM0.35/litre 伊朗 0.35马币
>>> Nigeria RM0.32/litre 尼日利亚 0.32马币
>>> Turkmenistan RM0.25/litre 突门尼斯坦 0.26马币
>>> Venezuela RM0.16/litre 维尼瑞拉 0.16马币
>>> MALAYSIA RM2.70/litre 马来西亚 2.70马币


RM 2.70!!!


Individual perspective: (*not mine*)
个人方面：

As of last month a Toyota Vios would ' cause a damage ' of about RM89,000. In the international market, a Toyota Vios is about USD 19,000
USD 19,000 = RM 62,700 (using the indicative rates of USD 1 = RM 3.30) That makes Malaysian Vios owners pay an extra RM 26,300.
上个月，丰田VIOS在大马售价8.9万。在国际市场，一台丰田VIOS是美金1.9万，相当等于马币6.27万（以1美元兑3.3马币计算），换句话说，马来西亚的VIOS车主足足多付了马币2.63万。

This RM 26,300 should be cost of operations, profit and tax because the transportation costs have been factored in to the USD 19,000.
RM 26,300/ RM625 petrol rebate per year translates to a Vios being used for 42.08 years. I do understand that the RM 625 is a rebate given by the government, but it also means that one has to use the Vios for 42.08 years just to make back the amount paid in taxes for the usage of a foreign car. Would anyone use any kind of car for that long? Now with these numbers in front of us, does the subsidy sound like a subsidy or does it sound like a penalty? This just seems to be a heavy incrementin our daily cost of living as we are not only charged with high car taxes but also with a drastic increase in fuel price.
这 高达2.63万马币的差别，应该顺理成章的归类为处理、税务以及盈利之上了，因为所有的费用都已计算在美金1.9万里面了啊！如果说这2.63万马币用来除以2千cc一下的每年625马币燃油回扣，一个VIOS车主可以用上42.08年。没错，625马币是政府提供的燃油津贴，然而这也意味着一个人必须应用42.08年的VIOS才能把购买外国车的税务拿回来。谁会开一台车开这么多年？？？这么看来，这所谓的津贴，究竟是津贴还是惩罚？这完全是给我们生活负担加重不知道多少的措施，因为我们不只要负担贵车，还要负担贵油！

With all the numbers listed out, I urge all Malaysians to join me in analyzing the situation further.
看着这些数字，我恳请大马的子民跟我一起分析其他的事情。

Car taxation is government profit, fuel sales is Petronas ' (GLC) profit which also translates into government profit. The government may ridicule us Malaysians by saying look at the world market and fuelprice world wide. Please, we are Malaysians, we fought of the British, had an international port in the early centuries (Malacca), home to a racially mixed nation and WE ARE NOT STUPID!!!
汽车销售税务是国家的收入，可燃油的销售是国油（国营机构）的收入，同时也一样是国家的收入。政府可以荒谬地说“看看周遭及看看世界的原油价”。拜托，我们是马来西亚人，征服过英国人，很早世纪便拥有国际港口，拥有多元种族人民的家园，我们一点都不笨好不好！

We know the international rates are above the USD 130/barrel. We understand the fact that the fuel prices are increasing worldwide and we also know that major scientist are still contradicting on why this phenomenon is happening. Some blame Bush and his plunders around the world and some blame climate change and there are others which say petroleum ' wells ' are getting scarce.
我们知道现在国际原油价格已经高于每桶美金130，我们明白全球燃油价格都在上升，我们也知道主要的科学家都在寻找这个状况的原因。一些人说是布什以及和他遍布世界的一伙，一些人说是气候转变，而其他人说是油田快要干竭。

Again we go back to numbers to be more straight forward.
再一次，让我们回到数字（那会更直接）。

1 barrel = 159 liters x RM2.70/liter = RM 429 or USD 134。 On 1 hand, we are paying the full cost of 1 barrel of crude oil with RM2.70 per liter but on the other hand the crude oil only produces 46% of fuel.
1桶原油 =159公升；每公升2.7马币，那一桶则视429马币或者134美金。我们正付出相当于1桶原油的价格，然而原油只产生46%的燃油。

Msia sells crude oil per barrel at USD130 buys back Fuel per barrel at USD134. And not forgetting, every barrel of fuel is produced with 2
barrels of crude oil.
马来西亚以美金130卖出1桶原油然后以美金134买进一桶燃油（在这里别忘了1桶燃油是以2桶原油所提炼成的）。

>>> if 1 barrel crude oil = produce 46% fuel (or half of crude oil), therefore
>>> 2 barrel crude oil = approximately 1 barrel fuel
假设1桶原油可炼出46%的燃油（或者原油的一半），那么2桶原油便等于1桶燃油。

In other words, each time we sell 2 barrels of crude oil, equivalently we will buy back 1 barrel of fuel. Financially, Malaysia sell 2 barrelcrude oil @ USD 130/barrel = USD 260 = RM 858 then, Malaysia will buy back fuel @ USD 134/barrel = RM 442/barrel Thus, Malaysia earn net extra USD 126 = RM 416 for each 2 barrel of crude sold/exported vs imported 1 barrel of fuel !!!
>>> (USD 260-134 = USD 126 = RM416)
换句话说，每一次卖掉2桶原油便买回一桶燃油。以金钱来计算的话，马来西亚以每桶美金130售出2桶原油（美金260；或者相当于马币858）便以每桶美金134的价格买回燃油。那么，每一个这种的交易，大马都会赚取美金126，或者马币416。

So where this extra USD 126/barrel income is channeled to by Malaysian Govt????????
如此说来，那超出来的126美金跑哪去了？

Another analysis:
另外一个分析

>>> 1 barrel crude oil = 159 liters. 1桶原油 = 159公升
>>> 46-47% of a barrel of crude oil = fuel that we use in our vehicles. 46-47%的原油 = 我们所用的燃油
>>> 46% of 159 = 73.14 liters. 159公升的46% = 73.14公升
>>> @ RM 2.70/liter x 73.14 liter = RM197.48 of fuel per barrel of crude oil.
乘以每公升马币2.70，每一桶原油有价值马币197.48的燃油

This is only 46% of the barrel, mind you. Using RM 3.30 = USD 1, we get that a barrel of crude oil produces USD 59.84 worth of petrol fuel (46%
of 1 barrel). USD 59.84 of USD 130/barrel turns out to be 46% of a barrel as well.
这只是那一桶原油中的46%。假设以1美金兑3.3马币，一桶原油（197.48除以3.3）有价值59.84美金的燃油，而这个价格（对比每桶130美金）也相当于46%。

Another 54% = bitumen, kerosene, and natural gases and so many more. And this makes a balance of USD 70.16 that has not been accounted for.
剩余的54%包括了天然气、煤油、沥青及其他。而这些都是那美金70.16之中还未计算的部份。

So this is where I got curious. Where is the subsidy if we are paying 46% of the price of a barrel of crude oil when the production of petrol/barrel of crude oil is still only 46%?
这便是我觉得好奇的地方：如果说我们正在付出了那原油46%的价钱，那所谓的津贴跑哪去了？

In actual fact, we still pay for this as they are charged in the forms of fuel surcharge by airlines and road taxes for the building of road (because they use the tar/bitumen) and many more excuse charging us but let us just leave all that out of our calculations.
事实上，我们还在付与其他的费用，如航空公司的燃油费、路税（因为他们得用沥青来铺路），以及其他很多很多的理由（恕不在这里计算）。

As far as I know, only the politicians who live in Putrajaya and come for their Parliament meetings in Kuala Lumpur (approximately 60+ km) are the ones to gain as they claim their fuel and toll charges from the money of the RAKYAT ' s TAX.
据我所知，只有那些住在布城并得远赴在首都国会参加会议的政治人物（超过60公里的距离）才有收获（因为他们从人民税中索取汽油以及大道收费）。

It is so disappointing to see this happen time and time again to the Malaysian public, where they are deceived by the propaganda held by the
politicians and the controls they have over the press.
这是一件非常遗憾的事情，因为周而复始地看见政府不断欺骗人民并对媒体施以控制力。

Which stupid idiot economist equates rebates for rich or poor with the cc of the vehicles? An average office clerk may own a second hand 1300cc
proton Iswara costing $7,000 (rebate = $625) while the Datuk ' s children can own a fleet of 10 new cars of BMW, Audi and Volvo all less than
2000cc costing $2 millions and get a total rebate of $625 x 10 =$6,250! Wow what kind of economists we are keeping in Malaysia....wonder which phD certificate that they bought from...
有 哪个白痴经济学家会以汽车的cc来评定、计算回扣率？一个普通的职员也许开着一台1300cc的二手国产花蝴蝶（价值马币7千；回扣马币625）；而一个拿督的儿子可以拥有10台宝马、奥地和富豪，全都是2000cc以下但价值2百万，可以享有625x10=6250的回扣！！这里究竟养着什么样的经济学家？

Misleading concept of Subsidy:
关于津贴的误导性

The word "subsidy" has been brandished by the BN government as if it has so generously helped the rakyat and in doing so incurred losses. This simple example will help to explain the fallacy:
“津贴”这个字眼已被国阵政府大事应用到让人感觉它的慷慨协助人民以及如何蚀食国库。这可以用下列的例子做一个很好的画面：

>>> Example: 例子
Ahmad is a fisherman. He sells a fish to you at $10 which is below the market value of $15. Let ' s assume that he caught the fish from the abundance of the sea at little or no cost. Ahmad claims that since the market value of the fish is $15 and he sold you the fish for $10, he had
subsidised you $5 and therefore made a loss of $5.
阿末是一位渔夫，他以低于市价的马币10令吉卖一条鱼给你。让我们来假设他以非常低/甚至于零成本从海洋（大自然）供应的鱼库捕获这条鱼，然后他说：“市价卖15，我卖10，我还亏5块钱啊！”

>>> Question : Did Ahmad actually make a profit of $10 or loss of $5 which he claimed is the subsidy?
请问：阿末究竟是赚了10块钱还是亏了他作为津贴的5块钱？

>>> Answer:
Ahmad makes a profit of $10 which is the difference of the selling price ($10) minus the cost price ($0 since the fish was caught from the
abundance of the sea). There is no subsidy as claimed by Ahmad.
答案是：阿末（当然是）赚了10块钱。当中根本没有津贴！

The BN government claims that it is a subsidy because the oil is kept and treated as somebody else ' s property (you know who). By right, the oil
belongs to all citizens of the country and the government is a trustee for the citizens. So as in the above simple example, the BN government
cannot claim that it has subsidised the citizen!
国阵政府说这是津贴，那是因为那些油都被藏起来，而且被视作是某人的产业（你知道是谁）。照理来说，这些油是属于国民的，而政府不过是人民的委托人。如此说来，政府根本不能说这是在津贴人民！

*courtesy from the fwd mail, origin of writer unknown*

Please nation, do something about this !! Thomas Yap !! call all your blogger friends !!

REMINDER

The Bottom Line

If your career feels like it isn't going where you want it to go, steer it straight.

In Detail

If your career feels like it isn't going where you want it to go quickly enough, right now, then you need to do some extra-curricular work. This may require researching upcoming projects on your own time, getting social with important business contacts in the evenings, or looking for outside opportunities over the weekend. It's up to you how ambitious you want to get, but if you are not satisfied, the only person who is going to give you any more satisfaction is yourself!

Never

i'll Never get the same treatment, the same attention, the same sweetness, the same care, the same love, the same tender, from you, not to even mention a better one of all those above. Not before, not now, not even near future.

.

you and i will Never be the same again. sadly.....but i swear it will Never be.

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*sniff*

Wish you luck

You ask for it. Don't try taking it back. Cos i'll never give in again.

Now Fuck Off from my life.

Ciao ~

Good Bye 2007

It has come to an ending...2007 was not the best year in my life but not the worst either. Its not like i've made a crime to make another person's life a hell ? Even if were to given the chance to....still, i would not ! (; Maybe at some state, some morons would claim dat (you know who you are!) If its so, you deserve to feel dat way and i'm not sorry. I did not have any intentions at all, you created the dramas you suck up to it. What goes around, comes around !

Yeah, admit, i have been childish a some point to even bother what a 16 yr old, who have not even passed her puberty age, made a scandal out of my name. LMAO. Now i know how celebs feel when some immorals` paparazzies (in canto* >>kau zhai tui) digging their dirty hands on papers just to earn some credits or publicity purposes by creating scandals/rumours over them. How low-life is dat ?? Followed by loyal BF & BFFs who claim she is innocent ? -.-"

Bt everything happened has reasons for it, at least it reveals the true odor of her. Everyone dat i care of knows. Thanks to yourself yea. ;) It help us got closers to each other too ~ :p i never regret for what have happened, if time were to turn back, i would stil do the same. No offense to fushen actually, i would be really happy if you both are goin to be together forever ! Honest, really ! And i know you know it. Its not like i knew her before you rite? So happy 2008 to you !

And another one dat made me realize, how much he means to me and how much i mean to him. You mite be rude at 1st, you mite still be rude to me. But never in my first intention to dislike you. I was nice, I befriended but you bitchstab. You thot you could regain what you've lost, what you've decided to let go... Hey, I wasn't in de picture when all those happened. I just made what i like to be mine when its not owned after then. But you didn't understand the rule, there is no turn back time when status change. After goin` thru for almost 2 and a half years with him, i understand at some point why would you choose to end it, but i believe he is a better boyfriend now. Hope you'll never feel the bitchstab i've felt. Hope dex* would really make you happy. Remember, after all we are both women ? I do wish sincerely from heart. ;) But at this point, you and i will never have good terms.

Well, My career change has been the biggest so far, looking by how many jobs i've been on. ;p But im satisfied for the improvement, for the struggling that i've gone thru, every struggle passed would made me a step closer to my dreams ~ Meet the best team ever. I dont called them colleagues, I titled them my bizness friends. Working world is not so scary after all ! haha. 2008, we will have a fabulous year !

And to all my family members, friends & acuaintances, i would sincerely apologize for any mis-behave i've let you all gone thru. Especially family members & boyfriend, SORRY !

Well, 2008 will be a great year for me & you.

Wish you all the best with enough of health, abudance of happiness, joy, luck and wealth !

(;

                         *HAPPY NEW YEAR* !

Insecuress

i do not mean to be harsh on you,

i do not mean to hurt your inner esteem,

maybe you had it in your mind while i was doodling to you,

maybe by little should i know, you're working your way on it,

but you don't wana let me know just yet,

because you wana make sure everything you did came out right,

perfectly for the both of us.

but that's just my maybe, is it your maybe ?

i hate guessing, i hate assuming especially about the future.

yeah, things might not align with our plan sometimes,

but at least with a significant line....things would perhaps be better not worst because we will be working our very best for the better tomorrow.

but somehow till now, insecure still caught the hold of me, the insecurity you're giving me......

this insecure somehow is telling me, you mite not be ......

Q to A

Tagged by Thomas...so here goes

1. Do you ever lie about your age?

Yes. to strangers especially in da net world.

2. Do you prefer “sensitive girls”or “tough ladies”? 

A lil of both would do nicely.

3. Do you prefer Blondie or dark haired girls?

Dark Haired please.

4. Are you currently single?

No. Yes. No. Yes. Single but not available ;)

5. How many things in your past do you regret?

A few, but never to repeat `em again.

6.Do you have a best friend? 

A ? I have A couple of besties. Mai Yin. Javitha. Emmy. Chong Wee. Andy. Fooi Yi. Alia. ;)

7. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Hurh ? What is this ? I am a grown up. -.-". I just wan Bling$$.

8. Who was the last person you hugged?

Shi Tyng

9. Have you ever had your heart broken? 

Yes, i do but i've broken a few hearts too (; so i guess it's fair?

10. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?

Never.

11. Do you like your life?

I don't hate it. Im just okay with it.

12. Do you shop at Macy’s?

Not Yet. Wanna sponsor my ticket ? & don't forget to cash in my bank account too. Thank you. =)

13. Has one of your friends ever stolen a girlfriend from you? 

Why steal ? I don't owned `em.

14. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?

I wanna believe this is a NO.

15. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?

I didn't figure. I think its the boys.

16. How long have you had friendster?

3 years ?

17.Have you ever cheated on someone?

Spanked me if i did... ;p

18. Has anyone ever cheated on you?

Yes, & you know what you did. Well, i forgive but i'll never forget. Bite me !

19. Have you ever slapped a girl in the face? 

I so wanna friggin slap her & her !

20. What is one of your biggest fears?

Loneliness!

21. Have you ever skipped a class?

Who doesn't ?

22. Has anyone close to you ever passed away? 

Yes. My dear Uncle Bobo. May you rest in peace. :/

23. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? 

Yes. Many times, i've lost count. Imma cry baby. So what ?

24. Have you ever been able to get someone out of your head?

I tried okay ? But initially, it will get off by itself if that someone is somewhat not matters to me. My heads has better things to filled with. heh.

25. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?

Yeah ! And you will be outta ma Life !

26. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out that you were right?

Yes ! Thank God. Im blessed with it (; Mwah

27.Do you ever wish you were famous? 

Hah. I am, in my own clan.

28. Do u ever wish u were a girl?

What the heck Q is this Thomas ??? I am A GIRL. pfft !

29.Who should i Tag? 

YenisH ( Yeah )

Sabrina ( have fun )

Lind ( mwah )

Jun ( of course, how could forget )

Mimikorene (;

And whomever wanna be tagged....

Useful Off-Day

PMS hit me. So i decide to take a day OFF. I wasn't in a bad mood thou. No mood swing either. =) Only abit sore on my body and lower back. Gurls/Women should understand how i felt.

I was pretty lazing around my bed. Got some quality rest. Ate plain porridge served with fish cooked with black bean paste. Not much of an appetite. & After a good browse on Astro, i got fed-up and decided to work on my long deserted wardrobe ! The door yet to be fixed ! Daddy was suppose to do it for me, since a year ago....-.-''

Well, i could do it anyway and mummy came to rescue, gave me a helpful hand ! Mwah ~

Wardrobe fixed, re-arrange my clothes. Filter away unwanted/unworn and some are new, never been worn. Kinda waste. Time to do more shopping ! But gotta earn more $$$$$ (><) Ooo make my own sale blogsite sounds good eh. Any support ?

Room vacuumed, wardrobe dusted. Then did a whole bunch of Laundries !!! man ~ 4 rounds + hand washed okay ! I need a maid, mummy ! (mum: sure, you earn more $$$, get Me one !) -.-" doom !

The whole process, i didn't feel uneasy like i used to on my PMSed days. Don't even need a bar of choco ! =)

And the best part is, received a sms from my darling...Woohoo !! ;) Finally PNG improve their mobile services, still lagging thou cos he haven't replied back. =/

Anyhow, its a Happy Day ! yay !

ooops &...

             

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JAVITHA !!! I never forgot ya ! MWAH ~

Bz bz bZ...

Havin` a Busy schedule now~

Appointments. Appointments. Appointments.

the more the better ! @@

not lovin it nor hatin it but

I'm EnJoYin` it =) & I'll be rewarded !!

MIssing you. Loving you.

<3

*this is happiness*

0.o Sicky day. =(

heher...=( sick day sick day...felt terrible. 0.o hungry, cant eat, eat will vomit !! =*( no good no good, 2229 whr are you??......=*( only sleep sleep sleep...drink. medic. yuckee!! hate medicine!! hate it hate it!! uek~ bluek~ O.o help me~~

not a good day.     

he says..

...."he says he still thinks of his ex and while he loves me, sumthing is still missing !....

FcuK this phrase. is a pick from a mag but sumhow it lingers here.

...dun wan a lamer in my list..

actually been wanting to blog abt this long time but din have the time. i cant sleep at the moment, so here goes...

i noe friendster is to meet all your friends and gettin to noe more friends. i like to meet NEW frens. dun mind ppl adding me in their friend list.  but sum never bother to even say hello? why adding? just to make your list a bigger number? o just to view your full profile for fun when u cant view it as a second degree's friend? lame....

ok, i admit i dun keep up with all my friends in my list either but at least i knew those whom i've added..n i dun mind them viewing my updates. one thing good abt this website is u get to keep track of your frens when u dun hv time to meet up for good n say helo. at least they update their profile and we noe wats goin on with their life.

how many of us actually can meet up everyday and chat abt our life? get real ppl. we cant meet ALL our frens at the same time to see how's everytin goin so we log in to friendster.com n update ourself. well at least dats wat i do...

i noe sum ppl just keep addin those who they tink are cute or pretty n good looking so that their frens can envy when they check their profile? they just wants to do "beautiful collections" so that they can be checked out? to me these ppl are actually lack of attention

to those who wants to add me in their list, ure most welcome but please dun do it for the sake of gettin urself a bigger number circle of frens and so called u feel glamour cos i find it really lame.

Baby....love just aint enough

Now, I don't want to lose you,

And I don't want to be the one to cry.

Just to have somebody by my side.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.

But like a fool I keep losing my place

And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.

Are there things that you wanted to say?

And do you feel me beside you in your bed,

There beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

And it's sad when you know it's their heart you can't touch.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.

Cause Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

a piece of mind on a cloudy day..

....i like it coz ure not a control freak...

hope ure sincere with it...

u noe better the more im controlled the more i'll rebel

remember u broke ur promise..

i dont tend to keep mine anymore either...

too bad even if u dont feel good about it...

all i can say is just sorry?

'' she pops a happy candy the other nite hoping to feel good..

felt tipsy (nice)..awful dizzy afterdat...(bad)..

took some pills to sleep...fall into deep deep sleep..felt like she din wan to wake up the next day..poor thg was bubbling away...then a pixie came n kiss her cheeks n took her away.."

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work sucks

darn loaded with work work work!!!!...everytin is urgent...

so tense...so irritated ..aaarrghh feel like havin a fever or flu so i can get a mc!

idiot!! i hate this situation but cant change cos i gotta mk a living.

i cant handle it soon...going to collapse...

but tomorrow is always a better day no matter sunny or rainy as long as al my dearest are with me....:) ..amen!.TQ J

freshgrads finally...so excited when it happen

yippee...i finally graduated for good frm my uni UMS...din have much emotions when i noe im goin to grad..but when its happenin..im just so excited n nervous when im goin to receive my scroll!..phew..rili glad to b back there again to meet my fellow frens..especially my church mates..so happy to b able to join ebs with my dear kok fung koko n linda n linnet..altho ony 4 of us..v had fun talkin n sharin too..thank God so much for bringin us together.AMEN!..its been so long since i attend church..miss it..im tryin not to b lost..

current a workin lady...hmm..its ok so far bt cant use internet..bleh..dats so borin..@@..but my colleagues are frenly ppl..dats d least dat can keep me alive in the office....apart frm a radio..

lwhere have our loved ones gone.....?

have u ever wonder where have our loved ones gone when they leave us behind....people often say it to children,they have went to a far far away land,v adults mite have understand they hv went away..or sum mite say they r with our beloved God up in heaven..but where do they exactly go?..it was really a heart breaker to let them go or to c them go away in reluctant. never i imagine i wud b in dat situation...i lost my dear dear uncle to cancer last year...felt so helpless,even more helpless when i saw my dad in helpless to help his beloved brother. thou it was almost a year...i still miss him alot..all of us do...Every now and then i tink of him ...But i noe he wil b in our hearts as long as v stil live...where do they exactly went doesnt matter..in the end i noe he has came to my heart to stay...I MISS U

..im in a sweet sweet milky way..,

life is so sweet when u hv sumbody to fond of n to be fond by dat sumone....dunno wat the future holds bt s long s it feels good now...notin's wrong...dear...im feelin rili sweet, rili sweet...^,^

my mad devil......

dedicated to my dear mad devil......

simple things u do to me

simple things u say...sometimes i wonder if its for real

you never try to please me..sumhow u always do...

and thats the way u make me feel,

but wat u did yesterday wasnt pleasing at all!!!!

im so so angry....duno y...only u..im not angry with others..but when u did it, it gives me headache..alot alot of heartache...alot alot......y?!y?!y?!....maybe bcos i tink u r a super super nice person...n it hurts to c u like dat...im so helpless...my dear,there are so many things can b enjoyed if u open ur mind...

Amour..............

Love will die if held to tight

Love will fly if held too light

Anticipation is sweet when u r sure of the outcome......